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Tell me something cheerful. anything. please.

1 by Grimloq
Elite SG Admiral
you know that thing hunter said a while back about the wheel of life, and sometiems its low, sometimes its high? i just hit the low part, and harder than i ever have in my entire $%*)&!% life.

apparently, a 97% grade in everything is 'not near good enough', and with my mom, 'not good enough' turns into a debate that can last for weeks, really wearing me down and making me feel miserable and inadequate. and also im probably goin to have to go back to this other school. most of the other 'students' there are the ones who went to that concentration camp with me, and i honestly say that if it hadnt been for the knowledge that someday i could kill them all, and hopefuly not get caught, i wouldnt have lived through it. literally. plus, i am chronically depressed, which doesnt help. i get one little peice of joy a day, when i finally fall asleep and just sink into oblivion for the night. i mean, when i relax, i start up a computer game where i kill or destroy things! how rotten is that?

my mom is going half-mad because of various strain, and my brother is pickier and more annoying than ever. on top of ALL this, my dads computer he uses for important stuff is broken down, which has REALLY screwed us up, especially since its now vulnerable to spyware, and he does MASSIVE monetary transactions on that thing. we have to be careful.

worse, im really getting emotions for some reason. somehow, i literally lost most of my emotions a few years ago, they just dissapeared, and essentially i can hate, be synical, bitter, and sadistic, but nothing much else. so, now that theyre coming back, im getting screwed cuz i was never able to deal with conflicting emotions at all.

somebody tell me ANYTHING that might cheer me up, PLEASE!


i swear, suicide looks VERY attractive sometimes... :evil:

2 by liberator
SG Defender
Umm, HL2 will be released this week. How's that?

Seriously though, I understand how you feel about you're emotions. Until recently, I myself only ever felt anger, sadness, and humor. Mostly humor as I seemed to laugh at everything and be generally cheerful. Recently I have become aware of an immense void in my life that I feel like can only be filled with the company of a friend of the female persuasion, and my general lack of any romantic ability whatsoever sends me into a depression with some frequency.

All I can say is don't let the small stuff bother you. If you obsess over the small things you can't control, you'll never be able to be happy. You can't control how or what other people do and say, only how you react.

Suicide is no way out, first and foremost, it's a sin that you can't seek absolution for because you're already dead. Second, imagine how you're family and friends would feel if you were suddenly and violently removed from their lives.
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3 by Singh
SG Commodore
Something cheerfull?

Ok.

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Errr.....at least...you mom...cleans up after you and you dont need to clean out your own bathroom even though you and lots of other people use it everyday?

4 by aldo
The Blessed One
97% is nowhere near good enough. It's far, far beyond 'godd enough'. It's pretty much as close as you can honestly expect to get to perfect, and if anyone else tell you different, then ignore them.

What I've found is that sometimes life seems shite. Y'know, pointless, depressing, etc. Sometimes for weeks, months, even years on end. But it's not always like that - each day is different, and regardless of the worst thing that can happen to you -that has happened to you - the next day it can all be better.

The thing about life is, sometimes you have to wade through the bad bits to get to the good bits. But when you do get to the good bits, they're better for it.

Also, only 1 month + 10 days to Christmas.

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5 by WeatherOp
SG Admiral
And dude, as we get older life is just gonna get harder.But, we must be strong. Seams like you need to tell you family to go on a vacation.And belive me like Aldo said 97% is great, I'm happy if I get just a 90% in one subject, let alone in all subjects.Take pride in that dude, nomatter what someone else says. :D

And you wanted something cheerful, least you don't have to wear diapers. :razz:
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7 by kasperl
SG General
97% is just moronicly good.

As for feeling depressed, well, I know the feeling. And yeah, it will go away in the end. If you want happy thoughts, I can tell you about my trip to Rome.......

(Imagine me, a mate of mine, and a 15 year old girl, drunker then anything, and a "20 minute" trip to the hotel taken 45 minutes because we had to drag her over every curbstone.)

8 by Flipside
Admin
Who the HELL is telling you that 97% percent is not good enough?

If it's your mum, with all due respect, tell her to roll your report card up and post it.

I got the 11th Highest exam grades in North London for my year, and I'm certain I didn't get 97% on any of my exams,

Well done Grim :)
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11 by Grimloq
Elite SG Admiral
ROFL!!

who made that? *lolol*

heh, thats awesome!

weatherop: actually, the more miserable and depressed i am, the better that campaign will be. the bittersweet freespace ending strikes again!

but as if all that werent bad enough, my working time per day just exploded to about 9AM to 6-7PM. daily. leaving me about 30 mins or an hour to do anything else on the compy.

though thx for the concern.
liberator wrote:Suicide is no way out, first and foremost, it's a sin that you can't seek absolution for because you're already dead. Second, imagine how you're family and friends would feel if you were suddenly and violently removed from their lives.
im an aethiest, so i dont take any comfort in religion and to me, 'sin' is just a fancy word that soulds cool and happens to mean 'without' in spanish. no offence.
i cant say i would care how my friends/family reacted, really. im nearly completely devoid of sympathy, and besides, i wouldnt really care ultimately, would i? :lol: it would in all likelyhood be a few days before any of my friends even found out, really...
also, im usually most at peace when depressed/unhappy, etc. it keeps my view on reality clear and unaffected by anything.
technically, i have no *reason* to stay alive, nobody does, but for now, thats not gonna stop me. TI and MSDS are SOMETHING to do, at least. so are various 3D models i make and Quarentine is something to look forward to.

incidentally, i dont like holidays, most of all my birthday. i didnt even tell anyone that my birthday took place last year, because it didnt.
I expect hippo will lock this thread soon, but thanks to all of you for yer concern.


[edit] uhm, speaking of suicide, wheres robo? :o

12 by Taristin
Ascended SG Initiate
Bah. Suicide is for losers.

You only get one life, why cut it short? Things almost always get better once you're done with High School, anyway. And don't worry about the people who seem like everything is going so bloody well for them in HS, because these are the people who peek too early in life...

Re: Tell me something cheerful. anything. please.

14 by d3jake
Elite SG Elder
Grimloq wrote: i swear, suicide looks VERY attractive sometimes...
Sucide is the easy way out.

Can't take the pressure?

Well suck it in, because there are a hell of alot of more people who are under more stress than you, and they are surviving going from day to day and then eventually getting over it. For you it might be when you move out, to college or wherever, away from your family and\or other pressures.

A wise country-westurn duo one sang-
"Sometimes thing don't turn out so good
Like you wish they would..."

Since you have such good grades (from my standpoint) can't you join some extra curccular activites? Cerntainly your school must have a couple that interest you.
"If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?"
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15 by Moonsword
Elite SG Elder
Try marching band, if you can commit to it. It can be hard, it takes a lot of time, but the accomplishment's something you can be proud of.

Or sports, if you swing that way, instead. Maybe a community theater production.

Grim, there's a lot out there.
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