Sectorgame

Whatever you do, just don't - never, ever - deny and lock away your problems. They won't get better, they'll grow like a cancer, devouring you from within, and you'll notice but when you're on the brink of collapsing.

Never lie to yourself.

I've just experience a bout of failures on my part and I just keep building up self pity.

I never tell anyone around me though, because the last thing I want is their pity as well.

I just need someone to come along, and inadvertly kick my arse outa the gutter and back onto the main road of life. I just finished studying a course, cancelled out of a new course I was enrolling to for financial reasons, still don't have a job, and am in a general slum. Mentally and physically.
I just don't know where I'm going in life, or if its worth it.

I see documentaries and other people doing well for themselves and it just makes me more ashamed of myself. Thus the last thing I want is for people I know, to look down on me in pity.
Funny thing is, its kinda already happening. I just try to avoid contact.

I think I'm waiting for the sudden realization of where I'm at, and where I'm going that's actually never going to come.
Thus the endless cycle continues.
But meh, s### happens. I'll dig my way out someday. I hope.

I have SAD (no pun intended), but thats about it... My sister has been bipolar since she was 6 though...

Sel'drathirae <---whos that?

Subspacebug.

whos that?

*sigh* You guys are so observant. Look at the past posts. Notice that .:TheShivan:. is no longer named as the poster...

ah... silly LS...

I am positively silly. That much is true.

but you're good at nebulas

You're so cute when you're silly

Aww... thankies ^.^

aside from a few posts, this has been more like a visit to the pshrink than a venting-anger post...

f#####g maths!!!! stupid. 45. f#####g. minute. test. stupid. F.
AAAAAAARGHAGHADOOSPAGHAAAAARGH
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ahhh that was very helpfull AND unintelligabibble