Whatever you do, just don't - never, ever - deny and lock away your problems. They won't get better, they'll grow like a cancer, devouring you from within, and you'll notice but when you're on the brink of collapsing.
Never lie to yourself.
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I've just experience a bout of failures on my part and I just keep building up self pity.
I never tell anyone around me though, because the last thing I want is their pity as well.
I just need someone to come along, and inadvertly kick my arse outa the gutter and back onto the main road of life. I just finished studying a course, cancelled out of a new course I was enrolling to for financial reasons, still don't have a job, and am in a general slum. Mentally and physically.
I just don't know where I'm going in life, or if its worth it.
I see documentaries and other people doing well for themselves and it just makes me more ashamed of myself. Thus the last thing I want is for people I know, to look down on me in pity.
Funny thing is, its kinda already happening. I just try to avoid contact.
I think I'm waiting for the sudden realization of where I'm at, and where I'm going that's actually never going to come.
Thus the endless cycle continues.
But meh, s### happens. I'll dig my way out someday. I hope.
I never tell anyone around me though, because the last thing I want is their pity as well.
I just need someone to come along, and inadvertly kick my arse outa the gutter and back onto the main road of life. I just finished studying a course, cancelled out of a new course I was enrolling to for financial reasons, still don't have a job, and am in a general slum. Mentally and physically.
I just don't know where I'm going in life, or if its worth it.
I see documentaries and other people doing well for themselves and it just makes me more ashamed of myself. Thus the last thing I want is for people I know, to look down on me in pity.
Funny thing is, its kinda already happening. I just try to avoid contact.
I think I'm waiting for the sudden realization of where I'm at, and where I'm going that's actually never going to come.
Thus the endless cycle continues.
But meh, s### happens. I'll dig my way out someday. I hope.
