precisely. but my school DOESNT have any extra-curricular stuff, being as i just teach myself rather than deal with anything else. the kids around here are so stupid... i mean, what kind of algebra class reaches its hardest point at addition of fractions??

besides that, ive tried all the sports stuff, and just being agreable and trying out various stuff, but i never liked any of it. ever. i like computers more than people. computers and small pets. dont ask why. i dont know.

d3jake wrote:Well suck it in, because there are a hell of alot of more people who are under more stress than you, and they are surviving going from day to day and then eventually getting over it. For you it might be when you move out, to college or wherever, away from your family and\or other pressures.

true. that annoys me to, cuz i know im being irrational, and it just drives me insane! i HATE people who are illogical and do stuff for no apparent reason, which is what im doing right now. i take pride in considering myself closer to being a 'clanner' (BT) than pretty much anyone else, and when im being totally unreasonable, i just lose it. my parents are seriously thinking about shipping me off to a psyciatrist.

oh well, im not feeling suicidal for now at least. i got a compiler, so i can do some coding. coding always calms me down...

Get the overexposure working for FS2

saywha?

Grimloq wrote: true. that annoys me to, cuz i know im being irrational, and it just drives me insane! i HATE people who are illogical and do stuff for no apparent reason, which is what im doing right now. i take pride in considering myself closer to being a 'clanner' (BT) than pretty much anyone else, and when im being totally unreasonable, i just lose it. my parents are seriously thinking about shipping me off to a psyciatrist.

oh well, im not feeling suicidal for now at least. i got a compiler, so i can do some coding. coding always calms me down...

Sounds pretty much like me in a sense.

One word of advice: there is a reason for living and for life to continue on; and it's as simple as eternal boredom.

Sure, life sucks, their's no reason to continue, but faced with the alternative (which comes when you keep quitting everytime existance gets tough) of eternal boredom, it is a better option.

o.O good points, but im not going to try to delve into their 'deep meaning'.

Grimloq wrote:i swear, suicide looks VERY attractive sometimes...

Trust me, its not. I know several people who would say the same thing.


Hunter was ight about the wheel, but you can't forget that it keeps turning, so you'll eventually come out, and go back into a state like this. Its best to figure out whats good and bad the first time, so you don't worry about it as much next time.