ok, i seem to be posting a lot of threads here lately. For once, this one is about RL.

I just got a very nice bit of MSN converstaion with a girl from my class. As some of you might know, I've been ill, and at home, the lsat 9 to 10 weeks. Now, I never was mister popular, but now it turns out, "the class" (a nice sign to hide behind) thinks it mostly impossible for me to pas the year, and would be rather happy to see it turn out that way. Now, it took me a bit of strength not to shoot the messenger, which would've been really bad for me to do, since this girl is one of the few not completely hating my guts. The rest of the class all thinks I am getting all kinds of positive discrimination. Examples are my 10 minutes extra time in tests (standard procedure at my school for people with dyslexia, eye problems, language problems, or stuff like that) i got for my eyes, my laptop, which i was seen using for solitaire in the worst of boring classes (the rest was either asleep (litterally) or playing chess on bits of paper, and me passing last year, even though i would have failed on 0.003 of a point.
Now, the fact that some hate me, is bad, the fact that they're too ####### lazy to come up and say it in my face is worse, and the fact that my friend on MSN estimated 20 out 0f 24 (me not included) would be happy to see me go, wasn't good either. I didn't see this coming though, and that strikes me the worst.

anyway, I am not expecting to pass easily anyway, should i just give up all hope and try again next year? or work on and be alone in class (I'll be alone anyway, if you ask me....).

if anyone wants to know, I'm 16, never had any kind of relationship, and I am doing the highest form of education possible here. I am too lazy to list the entire system, look it up in older rant threads.

and to add insult after injury, my laptop has gotten a whole collumn of always on blue subpixels.

Do it. Pass. Then laugh long and loud at your schoolmates as you move up past them, you know they deserve it It won't be easy, but I'd use the discrimination of your classmates as a motivator rather than a demotivator. If they all think you can't do it, then do it twice as well

Whatever you do, don't give up, that way you have let all the snidey cowardly little creeps win. And speak to your tutor about the message and how it has disheartened you, and how you feel they are displaying prejudice because you have needs that are different from theirs. At the end of the day, what do you care if the all get a bollocking, they don't care if you fail your exams

as for the tutor, bullcrap, the b**ch can hardly open her email, stand infront of a class without quievering and I'd be suprised if she can find her own ass, even with directions.

i think i'll be ok in the end though, this s### just doesn't make me truly relaxed.........


OT: the bloody TFT sprung a second bad column, also blue always on. Thank god for Pickup and Return garantuee.

Flipside is right, Kasperl. By all means, never EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP!!!!

If you give up and say "Screw it, I'm not gunna try", then you're gunna prove em all right.

But if you stay with it and work hard and PROVE you can do it, you can point and laugh and say, "nyah nyah!!!" to all those who doubted you. You proved them wrong.

And I know what you feel like, because I fought through s### in my school years too. And dammit, I fought HARD. I never gave up; even if I wanted to. When it's all said and done, and you succeed, there is NO greater feeling than that. And, I realize that you've probably worked so hard already. But you just gotta keep with it. It all pays off in the end, trust me!!!

Argh, I hates people like that. It's infuriating when people are so passive and stupid. Is there a higher authority you can go to, above your tutor? I mean, if anything, go straight to the top of the administration food chain if you must. You shouldn't have to deal with that crap. No one should. There's too much backstabbing and treachery in today's world....

But the fact is, that there IS stuff like that in the world. You can let it drag you down, or you can use those weights to make you stronger. In my opinion, you already ARE stronger than those who are against you, cuz think about it: It's like a video game. Everyone around you is on "Easy", while you're on "Medium", but STILL have managed to get as far as they have. You have more skill and experience. You're a better player. Trust me, I know ALL about this.

...You have MSN? I do too. Wanna chat sometime?

msn and s### is in my profile, just be very clear about who you are on first contact.

on the birght side, i have just been to a, well, tutoring week. 15 students from 13 to 18, 5, well, supposedly leaders to help us and keep us in check, ranging from 21 to 23. It was great fun, a full report will be up sometime soon, when i get some sleep. I have refound my trust in my social skills and in my chance of passing this year.

Good for you kasperl!!

*looks in profile* Eh..... nothin's there.....

argh.

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^^;; Sorry about that, I didn't know you were referring to your HLP profile and not the Ikonboard one....

To let you know I'm pussycat429 one....

ah, was just about to block you.......

anyhow. I won't be on MSN very often, and surely not awake enough to chat properly, I'm afraid.